On July 12th, 1996, our daughter Morgan died at the age of 7 months from leukemia. From her first week of life it was a great struggle for her. Despite a nurse telling my wife to “just get over it, she has colic,” something just wasn’t right with our little girl. She was constantly crying until finally starting chemotherapy which, unfortunately, took its toll on her little body.
After just a short few months with us, she was gone. As she was dying, my wife was startled and swears she felt the brush of an angel’s wing or saw its shadow. We feel confident that she is in Heaven now. In memory of Morgan, I’m writing what I think she might say or hope she would say from Heaven if she could.
Good morning from Heaven, Mommy and Daddy. I know you miss me but don’t be bothered. I’m in great hands, big strong hands. It’s so beautiful and sunny this morning here. The colors are so brilliant and bright. Actually it’s beautiful and sunny all day every day. But it’s not the sunshine that makes it sunny. There’s no need for sun here. There’s no need for anything – we have everything we need. The best things that you can imagine about life where you live are so much better and brighter and bolder here in Heaven. Everything you can think of is beyond anything you know or have experienced.
Everybody’s happy here. Everyone’s peaceful. No one ever cries, no one ever hurts, no one ever argues – it’s just perfect. I know Pappy and Grandpa and lots of others who know you. There are old people and young people and lots of babies. Well, in your mind, that’s how you would perceive it. But nobody has ages and no one’s body is like an earth body. It’s only life, no death.
You should hear the music. It’s so pretty. Remember how much I loved to rock in your lap and hear you hum and sing to me. You sang, “Silent Night, Holy Night.” The angels sing the most amazing songs and worship like you can’t believe.
The center of all worship is God Himself and Jesus, the Lion and the Lamb. There is no self-worship. We don’t worship other people. We don’t worship other gods. We aren’t distracted by senseless and useless things. We just worship God and enjoy His presence. It’s been the same since the first day and it will always be.
Don’t worry, it’s calm and peaceful here. I know you miss me but I see you every day. I saw how you cried when I left you. I wanted to shout to you so you would know how great it is here. But some things you’ll never understand until you see them for yourself. I’m cheering you on. Hang in there. I love you.